Calm down!

Ok.

I think I was just a little off, maybe due to the fact that I ran out of birth control pills (I think I may have mentioned that) a while back and hadn't made it to go get more, and got just a little emotionally fragile for a minute.

Now I am onto my next project: raising money for the school garden.  I am writing a letter to the president of the local nursery asking them to consider donating the soil, which is the most expensive part.  I have never done such a thing and I'm a little nervous!  I am definitely afraid of rejection in any way, shape or form.  It's a pretty good letter though and it made me use my brain for a second, which is good.  I think that's why this blogging thing is good for me.  Blogs are funny; I wonder how many are out there that never are read by anyone.  Like mine, more of an online journal that other people could read if they were so inclined, but does anyone read most of them?  In the age of fb and Insta, the prospect of sharing our lives is irresistible; we let others know what we're up to at every opportunity.  I'm guilty, don't get me wrong... I will post a picture of the most inane thing that no one would have any reason to care about.  My guinea pigs, really?  But I must, we must.  Because we have this need to let other people know what on earth we're up to at any given moment.  God bless our vulnerable, needy culture who loves to flash but behind closed doors is falling to pieces.

Another ski trip to Utah in a couple of days.  I almost bailed, feeling so overwhelmed and the prospect of another trip was sending me into a tailspin... but decided that not going felt even worse.  It will be my only chance to ski with fh this year and my last to ski with C, plus fh's daughter is coming and we will get to all spend some time together, which is rare.  So I am going to tough it out and then take it easy for a while.  Yeah yeah, taking ski vacations is really having to "tough it out," I know, I know... but for someone who can barely get unpacked before having to pack again, staying home is pretty attractive.  I didn't even mention the two trips to Mexico that took place in the two weeks (yes, two trips in two weeks) before I began the blog.  I'm not kidding-- it's constant.  You'll see.

Making fun progress on bridal shower-- feeling better about it, things are coming together! It will be a fun time, plus my girl that I'm doing it all for is so worth it and I want her to be happy! ...and hosting in our new incredible new home that we love so much is always pretty cool.

I think the funk has just about passed.... whew!!