Ok, I moped a little today. But got a lot accomplished-- almost everything on my to-do list. Maybe even everything-- maybe even more!
I kept busy enough to not think about being lonely too much; then spoke to FH on the phone as I'm ready to go out with a girlfriend for the evening and afterwards turn into an emotional wet noodle. What a double edged sword. I will not cry. My makeup is perfect. I am going out with a good friend for a good time and it will be a happy night.
The rug came clean! Chem-Dry to the rescue. Furniture back in place and we can forget it ever happened.
And I made it to the gym. It felt like I was being tortured each and every second. The great mystery; why I have all the energy in the world some days and others none at all? Of course, I'm also contending with the flow right now, which has been raging for the last two days. Enough! She is so unpredictable; won't show her face for months and then hits like a Mack truck. Geez! No wonder I've been fighting tears for the last 48 hours.
Tomorrow I will sleep in. I will, I will, I will! Please, at least until it's light. Big day-- C's last basketball game of the season right after school and we leave directly from there to Big Bear-- not necessarily looking forward to the 3 hour drive, but skiing with my little boy will be worth it.
Planted the lettuce with my Mommy, who is a godsend and I am ridiculously grateful to have her in my life, and C's. Guinea pigs will have a plethora of freshly picked dinners before long! The snap peas are in full harvest mode and we have too many to know what to do with! Love just picking them off the vine and popping them in my mouth.
Ah, life. Funks, fun, love, laughter, sex, fights, intimacy, friendship, grumpy people (am I one of those right now?!)... these are the things that make life interesting every single day. We never know what tomorrow will hold.
Now... time to go. I'm ready for a drink.
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